I’m really struggling.
I’ve felt this one coming on for a while but I put it down to exam stress and not eating properly. It’s hit me. I feel so useless. I can’t do daily activities. Everything is too much of a chore. I write lists of silly things to try and feel like I’m doing well and getting…
I wanna come give hugggg =C But you’re so far away, and I am stuck on the south coast. D<
Ending uni’s been ralli weird, ‘cos you do all this hard work and stuff (for even longer, in your case, with summer exams!), and then you come out the end and it’s just… kinda empty. And not very bright looking. I mean, you don’t finish uni just to go get a crappy waitressing job (and RSI, fuck this job), and hope for someone else to take you in the interim. Or at least, that wasn’t what /I/ was hoping for (especially not the RSI). And I think that sort of thing makes life even more dull to look at, because all the job apps disappear into thin air, and you have no money (even less to travel, gawd I wanna come back to uni so bad you have no idea), and the worst nightmare of all, having to move back home, is all too real. And for you, it’s all the more stressful with recent grief.
Where am I actually going with this? I am not even sure.
Basically I just wanna give you a big hug and go out for icecream or pizza or both together (definitely both). Next time I’m up (october) we’ll go do that okay =)
The Knight of FlowersGoing to leave this here forrenlyslittlerose, since we’ve discussed Lora’s’ armour at work. She is heading out for an awesome trip to Europe today. Have fun, friend! Can’t wait for updates. :)